In Irons - Disregarding the Commands of God, We Keep the Traditions of Man
Seriously one of my favorite songs by In Irons. One of the most anointed bands I knew and then they broke up and essentially turned their backs on God. I still love every song and every one of the guys even Jake who is no longer with us. RIP
How I am supposed to know all of that? xD
Just pick someone that falls into each of the categories silly :3 haha well, like don't write their names, just write like a secret message I don't know xD lolol
Dear person I like,
I just want to say that indeed I do like you and in the time that we have I want to get to know you more. Because its one thing to be infatuated with a girl because of solely on her looks but I want some much much deeper in which I can tell you anything and be as open as possible. To be your not only your boyfriend, but your best friend. I’m tired of people playing games and beating around the bush, but I want you to know that you have to let me know you like me and not leave me guessing because I will take it as you just want to be friend because I have fallen into that trap many of a time. I don’t mean to drag on with this one post, but oh well haha
Welp, I'm going to post in your ask >:3
Dear person I hate,
Dear person I like,
Dear ex bestfriend,
Dear future me,
Dear person I’m jealous of
Dear person I had a crush on.
I think you’re suppose to choose on what I write the dear (insert person) on try again :P
Today was a pretty good day for all intent and purpose because I went to Ryan Johnson and sat in on a One Accord practice which you should like because those guys are talented http://www.facebook.com/OneAccordAL?ref=ts. But I digress, seeing them writing new music and how it flowed it made me want to write some passionate hardcore of myself maybe not so ambient but still just as passionate. but with that it means finding a second guitarist who is on fire for God and wants to play that kind of music which in Madison, AL its really hard to find. So with that in my mind I realize that it will be a lot harder to accomplish such a thing and it honestly put me down…a lot. I want to start a passionate hardcore band but the more I think about it the more I feel God saying that this is not my priority and to focus on the task at hand and that is to finish up my internship and continue to seek after God. I was/am reading through Proverbs and in chapter 27:1-6 it says “Do not boast about tomorrow, for you do not know what a day may bring forth. Let another man praise you, and not your own mouth; a stranger, and not your own lips..Wrath is cruel and anger a torrent, but who is able to stand before jealousy? Open rebuke is better than love carefully concealed. Faithful are the wounds are the wounds of a friend, but the kisses of an enemy are deceitful.” I read this and was thinking about my own life and how I have boasted about myself about what is to come and I tuck away truth in able to keep a friendship instead of rebuking them and showing them truth because I know that sometimes truth hurts, but it also shows them that they are doing wrong and if out of love can bring them back to what God has got planned for you. Honestly I don’t know what God has called me to do though I know that it is full time church ministry and if it is pastoral ministries that is awesome, if it’s worship ministry that is awesome too, heck even if it is just cleaning up the church I’m ok with that too because I am doing the will of God and those who are put last shall be first (sorry if I butchered it). I have felt the most comfort and genuine happiness getting behind a pulpit and just preaching on what God has laid into my heart. Does it mean that I still love playing hardcore shows with Daleth? Of course because I LOVE EVERYONE IN THAT BAND TO DEATH! People say that I can do both, and though it may be true, I can’t do both if God says no you need to focus on this. If you are still reading this I applaud you for your patience and boredom to read what is on my mind and heart. I want to continue to play in Daleth and write music because I love passionate hardcore so much and if there are any guitarists that want to play that and live in the North Alabama region and are out of school preferably hit me up and I will talk with the guys about ya and let you know. That is all that is on my mind and with that I bid this long freaking post goodbye, farewell, auf wiedersehen, adue
So just as a random stream of consciousness I’ve been thinking about my friends that I have known and been with four roughly 4-5 years and been through a lot of stuff with and how there were the friends that were there to help me pick me up when I was at my lowest and then there were the friends that were only there and convenient when a) I was happy and joking around and b) there was a show that they wanted to go and no one was going to and all of a sudden I was up for a ring to hang out. To the friends that i can count on to be there for when i am happy and go lucky and when i am pissed at the world and just want to give and support and encourage me i want to say that i thank you so much and i can never tell you how much I love and appreciate you. God has really been putting me through the ringer with some of the stuff I’ve been doing whether struggling through the depression of having to give my daughter for adoption and having to see her grow up in the distance not to know who her biological father is to the stress and love of Manifest Revolution Leadership Institute and getting trained to do what God has called me to do. I sit here while listening to Close Your Eyes and knowing that this will not get many notes and reblogs but knowing that someone reads this is enough for me. I personally want to thank Jonathan Long, Andrew Timms, Drew Fanning, Ethan Sharp, and more to be those friends that have encouraged me all this time and to the leaders of MRLI also. Sorry for this random stream of consciousness I just thought it needed to be said.
happy: The Happy Birthday Song- Andrew Bird love: Love- Crime In Stereo hate: Hate- Mountain Men light: All of the Lights- Kanye West dark: Cold Dark World- Weezer good: All Good Junkies Go to Heaven- Glassjaw bad: If You Had A Bad Time- Alkaline Trio smile: Smile- A.F.I.
happy: Real People Aren’t Always Happy - Alert the Sky love: I Love Lamp - Battle! hate: Glendale P.D. Hates Daggermouth - Daggermouth light: Lights Out - Attila dark: For All Those in the Dark - Adelaide good: The Good Die Young - Betrayal bad: Scarlet/Prayer in Bad Weather - Dead Heroes smile: I Only Smile When You Bleed - The Red Shore
“Too often the people complain that they have done nothing with their lives and then they wait for somebody to tell them that this isn’t so.”—Charles Bukowski (What Matters Most is How Well You Walk Through the Fire)
“Because God is never cruel, there is a reason for all things. We must know the pain of loss; because if we never knew it, we would have no compassion for others, and we would become monsters of self-regard, creatures of unalloyed self-interest. The terrible pain of loss teaches humility to our prideful kind, has the power to soften uncaring hearts, to make a better person of a good one.”—Dean Koontz (The Darkest Evening of the Year)
when you feel like you’ve taken two steps forward then 10000 steps back? I’m having one of those days but at least I can rest assured that God is a God that heals and forgives but at the same we can’t test God and right now I feel super convicted about stuff and about to go and blast some Jesus Culture (hate on me) and go pray/meditate.
just felt like posting that lil vent and Andrew Timms I still miss ya and good luck at Lee University.