"but they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength;
they shall mount up with wings like eagles;
they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.” Isaiah 40:31
This verse means so much for me because there will be days where I am absolutely worn out and the enemy is working on me and I see this verse and it does renew my strength. Does it still suck? Oh god yes I battle with Depression and Social Anxiety Disorder, but God has called me to full time missions and speak to the people there (If you know anything about Social Anxiety Disorder you know that it is nearly impossible to meet and interact with new people or group of people for fear of being judged and criticized). I will not let Depression and Social Anxiety bring me down for God is the Lord of Hosts, Jehovah-Sabaoth, and the Lord who is present, Jehovah-Shammah, and I apologize for using “churchy” words, but I feel like I needed to post this because I know that someone out there is struggling with Depression, Social Anxiety Disorder, Anorexia, Bulimia, Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, ADD/ADHD, any ailment of our body that we say that we can’t overcome that where are you looking? Are you looking to the God who loves you even when you didn’t know or even care to know Him and saved us from eternal separation by sending his own son down to live the perfect life, sin free and then go and be condemned and beaten then nail to a cross and died and was raised on the third day that He may sit on the right hand of God and be our perfect high priest and restored the relationship that was lost at the Garden of Eden. You say you just can’t overcome, but I say you can all you have to do is fix your eyes on the one who set you free from sin. Sin was never meant to have dominion on us but we have dominion of sin. This can only be accomplished through the power of the living God.
After going to my Mom’s and have her absolutely break me down and make me feel worthless and leaving me to go home in burst into tears love me and helped me reassure myself and keep going. I don’t know what I’d do without them. and Andrew and Jonathan because they my boyfrans xD
Physically it’s going to suck, but at the same time it will be really amazing. The Daniel Fast is to in lame man’s terms be vegan. No meat or animal products, No dairy product (Milk, cheese, cream, butter, and eggs), all sweeteners (sugar, raw sugar, honey, syrups, molasses, and cane juice), all leavened bread and baked goods, all refined and processed food/food products (artificial flavorings, food additives, chemicals, white rice, white flour, and food that contains artificial preservatives), All deep fried foods, all solid fats (shortening, margarine, and high fat foods), and finally not drink anything but pure water. It will take a toll on me at first but I know that I will go through spiritual breakthrough. Along side this I will also be fasting my internet and computer usage (especially Tumblr), listening to hardcore of any kind, and phone usage to text only in daylight hours. This is going to be the best and worst 3 weeks of my life. As I go through this please be praying for spiritual breakthrough it would be wonderful.
where nothing has really made you feel this way but at the same time you are really down. Curse you weather and being perpetually broke but I guess I’ll go and study some stuff and maybe try to write a sermon while on Tumblr. Leave some messages if you feel like chatting.